Life on the scales

Why do I self sabotage myself? Why is everytime  I get closer to being out of the 300"s I binge till I get back to my starting weight? I feel like a whale! I'm still down to 314 from 329 but I feel heavier than ever! I've been eating kinda paleo for like 3 or 4 months. I don't think I'll ever go back to eating crap again. I just have this awesome mind set that its just not gonna happen. Kinda like when I quit soda and tea and cigarettes. My exercising is crap!! I'm doing good in the gym but it's getting to the gym... Even if I say I'm going to go I just never get there. I'm getting a lot better at running on the treadmill!! Getting up to 6 mph!!!! I need to set goals and stick with them. I really need to get my head together and take my meds every single day! MFP needs to become my best friend!

Well It's been a minute! I'm still fat and living my life on the scales! Im doing a low carb/paleo/starving diet! :-) Ive been stuck at 330 for awhile, down to 312 in the last 42 days i've been dieting. All I have to say is, I'm HUNGRY!!!! lol I wish I was like other ppl who could go on a diet and lose weight with just a little change. Not me Between my PCOS, T2 Diabetes, and my thyroid I don't have it as easy. All 3 of those diagnoses make ppl gain weight. :-( I just want to be a normal person. Without all the health issues and obstacles.   I did determine that I am indeed a food addict and I have cut out all foods that exasperate those symptoms. I made a pact that I would cut them out forever which is scary to say that!!! To never have bread? To never have sugar? WOW thats scary stuff! I'm not as hungry all the time but i'm still hungry a lot especially as i'm taking my meds that reduce my appetite! They also make me calm and not so bitchy! lol ...