Life on the scales

So sorry I haven't blogged in awhile, I was very sick with female troubles like none other I have ever dealt with! I have turned a corner and after almost 3 weeks I am getting better, Still weighing in at 321lbs. I guess I am ok with that. Dont get me wrong I am not happy with myself. I just use the excuse that it is the holidays and lets move on. I will beat 321lbs! That is my main goal is to get down in the 3 teens. After that I will have yet another mini goal. I dont mind losing weight slowly, maybe not this slow but as long as I am going in the right direction I am better than I was. I am not losing 20lbs a week but hopefully soon I will be losing a lil bit every week. It is almost new years which means new and old resolutions! And I am so excited to make them and also stick to them. I am committed to doing better for myself and my family. Happy Holidays!

Nothings really changed, I am still weighing in at 321'lbs. Although I am taking my meds everyday, that is more than likely the reason for this last week. I have been feeling very very blah. My house even got to the point were I was scared someone might come over! In fact someone did knock on my door! Luckly it was just my youngest sons church driver and he doesn't come in. But after that happened I got up and cleaned the whole house. It has been months cents I let my house get so dirty that I was afraid of someone dropping by. It is so nice to have your house "guest ready"! And that will be one of my goals. I know it sounds like that has nothing to do with weight loss but for me it does. For me a clean house lets me clear my head to focus on the weight loss. Plus who don't love a clean house and it can burn a few calories! Until I get used to my meds again I expect to feel pretty dazed and funky. But after that Ill be fine and back to normal. I am still afrai

That I have bin binge eating for 4 of the last 5 days. That I have felt horrid for all of those days. That I have learned that the way I used to eat everyday I now consider binge eating. Or maybe that on top of all that binge eating really breaks the bank! But I am back on the horse, saddle, or wagon! As of yesterday. The last time I posted I was around 316lbs. In the middle/end of my binge I got on the scale and weighed in at 329lbs! That is 13lbs I gained! I think about 8 pounds or so was water weight from not taking my meds. I have now took my meds 2 days in a row and I weighed in at 321lbs. That is still 5 pounds up from before. I also stopped food journal-ing, of course I would stop who wants to look or know all that. Eating Chinese food 3 times in 4 days is not cool! But man is it good! lol So I am going to get back to that. I dont care who you are you are never more aware of what goes in your mouth than when you have to journal it and know every calorie you put their! M

* My Blood sugar is 198 * My weight is ??? * My Fat grams intake is 87 * My calorie intake is 1,116 * My carb Intake is 20 This would be a good day if I was low carbing but I am not. I need to go shopping. I also need to use up some things that I have. When I do go shopping I want to buy low fat. I went for a walk this moroning and it was just under 30 degrees. I did 2 loads of clothes hung the out to dry, then took a nap. I started taking my meds again and my fluid pill always makes me feel like crap. So I have been lying around feeling sorry for myself. I am gong to wait a few days to get back on the scale I want it to go down some more. If I was to look right now I would be up a few pounds I am sure.  I am off to bed!

I am going on a walk this morning and it is almost 30 degrees outside. I am going to try to get back on track today! It is a new day and a new month! This month is not only Christmas it is also the month I turn the big 3-0 as in thirty! I want a new style of life so I can have thirty more years and watch my grand kids grow up that would be awesome. yall have a great day! Ill be back later.