Life on the scales

Weighing in at 314! Lowest I have been in awhile. I haven't seen 313 in like 6 years! So I cant wait. I am almost at the same weight I met my husband at another 10 pounds or so.  I am so close if I make a lil extra effort I can beat the 300's! One thing I did yesterday with my kids was take them to our community center that is like half a block away! We played racket ball for and hour then basketball. Then we went swimming and played air hockey and pool. We had a blast and I am kicking myself for not going more often. We had so much fun why not go a few times a week. Another thing my community center has is a gym! I need to be using this gym, but I am so scared! But I am going to make a vow to go this week! I am not sure what I can do their but I am going to go! I'm scared. I love my energy lately and  hope it keeps up. I have been drinking a lot less coke like 1 huge glass a day instead of a 2 liter. Also my husband is on board ...

This is the only picture I sucked in my belly! I pulled the extra material back so I could see the shape of my legs. Have a great day!

 I have been cleaning the house and doing laundry but I am taking a break. My husband made me breakfast this morning I think he was disappointed that I got out of bed before it was done. He made me bacon and biscuits and I loved it. I am not going to nag that I sure as hell don't need a plate of bacon which is what I ate. I will admit my husband makes dieting hard for me. He is over weight but because I am bigger than him  I am sure he is okay with his body. He has told me many of time that He is not the one with the "problem". So why should he change. That statement makes me wanna crack his head against the wall. Not Really I love him so much. I just have to be stronger. I have to say no to the food and the soda he brings home. Speaking of soda OMGosh at the lil episodes I have had! Just the cravings were withdrawal like. I went to the store and was fixing me a fountain drink and I had to quit trying to open the straw and just drink from the cup, bec...

Ok so I got way way off track for the last month! I am kicking my self for being so close to the 200's and not fighting tooth and nail to get their. I am so upset that I have gained weight. Last time I weighed I was 321 again! Now I am to afraid to step on the scale until I rewire my brain. What sucks the most is my largest strugal is still soda! Oh it makes me so upset. It a drink. I drink water and love it so why the big issue with soda? I cant stand that this one thing has this huge hold on me. Well I went and weighed myself mid post and I was at 317lbs. A lot better than I thought Id be! I need a plan. I want to go to the gym but I have a very valid excuse right now and it was caused by all of my massive sugar intake. Not gonna go tmi on ya! Unless you ask me in the comments. That way you can decide to read it or not lol